Hello after a longggggggg vacation

Assalamualaikum everybody

Urghhh as if anybody would read my blog. Anyhoooooooo, I'm back. IDK whether I'm back with a new look or back for farewell to this dusty site. Fuhh fuhhhhhh habuk gooooooooo!

I've been thinking about making a blog just for my kids on my life and "How I Met Your Baba". Cool kan mummy ni? HIHI. I know I know. Well, most of my friends said I will be the coolest mummy to my juniors. Don't you guys should be less worried about you mummy being cool gila. Yeahhhh I like that statement. Enough said.

You must be thinking kan why I'm back? Why should I be coming back, writing the dusty old unattractive blog andddd absolutely no die hard fans. This is my blog I can come whenever I want to.

The last entry was written during the first semester. Now I'm back after 2 semesters. Haha. At least I come back to wipe away those dirty bushes bebel bebel.
I think I should decorate bebel bebel first then I would be glad to write again, I wish.

D'accord. Au revoir. Merci :)
p/s maybe I'll be writing in french, one day.

sighing

hello.

feeling the down emotion, sad, unlucky enough anddd other bad feelings. haha. it's funny to write my sad emotion feelings here. but that's the reality. the real thing of what i'm feeling inside. i don't think anyone would care about this. so, i have to face this by my own.

in order to make myself better, i have to, haveee to be strong, a superwoman. nadia, don't hope too much that is impossible and don't ever put high hopes to the people you hoped for that that blaaa blaaaa. okay tak?

yess yesss. i am now leading a quite pathetic life. i don't have smart phone, dslr and so many more that all the now-girls wanted to have and keep them for life in their pocket.

does having all these on-the-go-tech-kit shows who yourself really are? maybe. one word, RICH. does being rich means that you're having a good good life? probably. yeahhh. at least you guys have the money and richness to make yourself forget all your worries kannn?

sadly, i don't have all theseeeeee. do i really care? sometimes. sad and pathetic much? hmm. :)

but. okay there's a but. but maybe. maybe pula? haha. okay but maybe, i could learn more and motive myself to try harder and strive for excellent for all my next 5 semesters of studying. so that i could change my fate and my make my mak very proud of her daughter. and also my children wouldn't experience the same as i am experiencing this now.

what i'm experiencing now, children. children? i would like my coming-children to read my blog in the future seiii. huhu ^^

back to the my experience :D,

i feel like i am not lucky enough to be in this world. why? look how my dad treated me. he took my sister and the kids away to a wonderful vacation, shopping and to wrap everything up, it was like a whole week of holiday which i wasn't invited, not even call like "kak no nak ikut tak ayah pergi jalan?" NOOOO okay!!!! . how did i know this? i peeked at my sister's fb. very sad ;'( and soo not fair. okay fineeeeee! so children of my future, mummy will treat all of you equally and mummy will try not to make all you sad and cry.

will continue writing the heartbroken phase tomorrow. can't handle the tears right now ;'(

thoughts for today

i am treated unequally.

thank you.

doodling :D

hello. hey hey. today, i saw a girl wore this shirt. i was like, what are you wearing girl???. i guess she don't know what thugs meant. sorry but i think she's an idiota. oppsie. with her so-called-blonde-hair. euuww. get a life woman! are you calling yourself bad? criminal? err.

p/s please check the words on the shirt before you purchase it okay. happy shopping. (shopping?) haha.

this is so not fair! grrrr

hello people with bodies. (:

i have missed posting the journey of mine making the pancake. haihhh. sadly, tak jadi. sila gelak. ;(

i don't think my dad is being fair to his two daughters. i hate this. really hate this. yesterday my sister and the kids went to watch Rapunzel without inviting me. later that night, she packed her clothes in a big bag without telling where she'll be heading and went off the house without telling mak and even to kiss mak's hand. she was rude and always be. i don't care if she'll be reading this one day because i do have the times to have the "hating" feeling. she knew that i couldn't join the holiday because i'll be facing the jpj test this monday. well at least!!! tell me or say " jomlah". you know, like please (do) invite me even though i won't be joining you. my dad too. he always treat me and my sister unequally. she will always has more than me. i am so frustrated and dissapointed with this. thank you so much. :'( :'( :'(

fine! it's okay. i guess i'll be pushing myself and counting on my own self to have what i want andddd to satisfy the ME. go nadia!! don't have hope to other people which you can't counted on. okay tak ayat? sjkznekjiertepote*^U*&)NHJGFF <---- considered as cursing. (smirk)

not lucky enough huh? tak apa tak apa. one day you'll see the real ME, i mean the new successful ME.

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do we really need all this? like really?!!

hello anybody. how have you all been doing? great huh? yeah it's weekend lah. ^_^

sooo. maybe the title should be DO I REALLY NEED THIS. haha.

when to think this back kan. do i really need this branded clothes, shoes and bags and etc etc?? plus, i am not from a rich family, i don't have that much of savings and i don't have the scholar except for ehsan ayah tercinta. anddd, i am studying right now. i should focus most on studies and my coming career. i have to think how am i going to make my mak happier and give anything she wants like i was now and a little monster. i want to pay everything back to her. she has done A LOTTT to me. i love you mak.

to add more. when to think it back againnnn, what's the purpose of me living in this world? to make more money? to make a lot of friends? to make my wardrobe fuuuull with branded things or whatsoever? maybe i can afford to buy all the things i wanted in the future. in order to afford all this thins i wanted, i have to get an awesome job. and in order to have an awesome job, i have to struggle on my studies. this time i'm studying what i like which i prefer the most rather than studying biology, physics and chemistry. do you know that when you are studying the thing that you like, i mean that goes along with your music, you'll have a higher probability to nail it mann.

sooo nadia, go for it girl!! study first. if you really really really need this ( i know myself well though ), rethink about that again. if the things gain more that 3 reallys. :D

andd solat pray hope tawakal. insyaALLAH, everything that i wanted will be granted. amiiiin.

p/s : does getting everything that you want would make you happier? think about it (:

craving for sweeeeeeeeett food

hello to followers that has reached to 12. a round of applause to me. YAYYYY. haha.

i'm hungry lah. it's not that my mak didn't cook. sorry mak. i just don't have appetite to eat rice. my tummy is shouting a name, which is CAKE. haha. idk why my tummy has been so gedik to me today. nak tampar nanti i'll just hurting myself. so don't act foolish because i am no fool. :)

maybe i'll be making my-first-attempt cake. a chocolate cake, nak tak? eheh. i'll try lah. bf dah ada so kena belajar sikit sikit masak ni. gedik aihhhhh. hihiiii. i googled to look for the recipe and luckily all the ingredients are there in the drawer of the messy kitchen :P

maybe i was affected to the Cake Boss (S2) in TLC. greammmmmm.

we'll see what will happen or i'll end up eating roti kaya. :(

excited pula kita tengok FS pi singapura. tak apa tak apa. kita akan pi nanti. tapi kita tak mampu macam dia lah kan. kita pi ni pun low budjet punya tour to singapore. sehari aja pun. sebelah aja pun kan. aku jerit mesti dah dengar. hihih. christmas is wayy exciting in singapore. US tu nanti lah pergi. tunggu dapat scholar. tak pun i'll just wait for the disneyland in iskandar nusajaya to be ready. idk whether it's true or not. i just heard the rumors spread. weeeeeee. okay okay.

will hit the tab next time or later. adieu.

i wanna watch HP!!

so bad kan nak tengok HP masih tak dapat dapat. kerana:

1. i only have rm9 in my purse. pfft.
2. got no company to watch together except for wan. but she is now attending the spm.
3. unfigured factors. HAHA

maybe i'll just watch HP when i got back to ukm kot. alone pun no hal. if sini nak pergi CS alone, my mak would probably say NOOOOO!!

okay okay move on nadia. having not-so-so-good last night but yayyy ended with a smile and tears of joy. thanks LUCKY guy. i love youuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

as you can see that i only have 1 piece of 5 note and 4 pieces of 1 not. thank you. but still, the desire to own something something never failed to make me dream and dreammmmm. yessss!! in the need of new handbag, new sneakers, new jeans etc etc etc. okay here is the i-do-not-know-when-to-get list. plus, i am not from a filthy rich familia. maybe a challenge for myself to earn my own money for those expensive things which i really can't afford right now. so nanti bangga sikit beli barang idaman guna duit sendiri because i don't find any satisfaction shopping with parents' money. do you proud of that?? okay. this is the long-term target. semua berangan aja ni. eheh (:

• C&K handbag
• BB
• C or V or T sneakers
• M or E purse
• D colourful bracelet
• owl or elephant necklace
• M or Z jeans
• Z or HP flats
• R or K flip flops
• F21 or CO or M or Z or just nice and comfortable tops

and andd for the next birthday for the LUCKY guy of my this entire 4 years before. i think i can aonly buy him shirts or shorts or a K flip flops. i want him to have M or CO or T aja lah. Q is sooooo boring. tak rare. sama macam R and T yang perempuan perempuan sekarang suka tu. boooo. errkkk.

ni pun santek kan. untuk abang, maybe. weeeeeeeee. :)))))

sooooo. okay dah. list kebajetan dah siap lah juga. now, i just have to save and save. christmas will off to singapore which is wayyyy cheaper than our country. tapi crrency dah naik. hadoiii. selamat menghadapi spm kepada yang menghadap. senang ajaaaaaaa :P

tataaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

damn! Malaysia kalah :(

hello rakyat Malaysia . .

tajuk tu semangat Malaysia boleh kan? :D haha. i just finished watching the final takraw match. cewaaaah. supporting the Malaysian team lah wei! at first, i thought it was a waste of time watching sports. but not lah. as i watched them score and score, i got excited as the adrenaline level got higher and higherrrrr. woww. my heart was like shouting "Malaysia dapatlah emasssss!!!" but sadly we lose :'( to Thailand. so, we'll bring silver medal for takraw team. fyi, we've been losing takraw to Thailand for four times straight. tears washed away by the hujan now. haha. okay. lihat gambar di atas. gilalah dia lipat. caraaaa sei. :O

then, i realized that female also joined the takraw match but not for Malaysian team. well, i think it's not appropriate for female to lipat and kangkang like men. haha. and i was wondering "eii, tak takut ke dara kau koyak?" omgomg. :D

oh dear. look at that. i couldn't do this. and afraid okay :O

ni team Malaysia. except for the tallest guy, but he still the previous team members (:. the tekong was Azman. you can see Azman from the first picture with the mustache. nor shahrudin was great in the game, who wore jersey number 11 and farhan, the smallest (:

:o

and soooo. i was thinking and hoping that the LUCKY guy can play takraw. he plays soccer. tak cool sangat. andddd andd i had a crush with nor shahrudin. haha. haih. perempuan if tengok sports tak sah kalau tak tengok ke-handsome-an players kan. :D

till then, go go Malaysia. Malaysia boleh!!!

p/s: to amie all the best for her badminton tournament in the karisma, uitm.

a day after raya haji

haha. there are so many bloggers keep on writing about their raya adha celebrations kan. well, i am about to tell that story last night. but my brother was using the computer. so. again everybody, the mood of writing the story flown away. idk by whom or whatsoever, it was just "poof". okay sorry for being soo exxagerating. :D

so. this evening was the girls-outing-day again. haha. with mak, wan and i. a mother and her two lousy dauhthers. we to the bank. and off we went to shop for something. (:
sooooo....
each of us bought a new underpants. haha. i bought 2 actually after reminded, "satu aja untuk seorang" by mak lah kan. siapa lagi. tambah lagi kami belum dapat ehsan dariapa ayah tercinta. hehe. then, i saw a lovely yet so wanting tshirts. and we were like, "omgomg it's MJ". we were also like, "we have to buy this, we HAVE TO!". andddd. there you are right now in our wardrobe. but my little sister can't wait to wear it. sooo...

see. look at her. show offfffffffffffffffff.

we both bought the same design but different colours. just like the good wonderful old days of being the little kids. i bought blue and she have the so-called-pink shirt. :D

we were both happy and very proud to have MJ. haha. riak dah. riak dah. sudah lah. the best part was, happy ending yawww. bad thing is we have to pay our mak's money back. right after we got the ehsan daripada ayah tercinta.

okay okay.

i did feel sad because i couldn't watch harry potter the deathly hallows part 1 today as planned. ):

esok korban binatang banyak banyak

salam semua. salam hari raya. :D
huhu. hello people. great. 2 posts in a day. wooooooooooooooooooo!!

still watching and sleeping with MR.TV. ada nama kan kau tv. haha. happy now kan. not like my previous posts. days of crying out loud, heartbreaking, missing the LUCKY guy and etc etc etc. you know those sad and tears days. girlsss ([g:rlz])
(haha. phonetics. that reminds me of ling lang) aww. okay okay. stop nadia.

oh lupa. topic. happy now. i went through the normal couples would do with their phones. texting, calling, etc etc.... which i like and feels like young days agian. uuurrghh, am i that old. naa. no i am still young. :D
feels like the old days, during the first years of lovey-dovey. like i don't want to separate a minute from you sayang. awww. abang i heart you with all my soul and bones. boleh terima tak. hihihihihi.

oh. btw, happy eid adha. happy eid qurban. happy enjoying the meats of the sembelihan.

at home :D

it has been a while kan. actually, i had planned to write but the mood of writing got away. idk where the mood has gone. haha. my last 2 posts were stuck in the drafts. XD

okay. dah a week spending lepak time in the house. watching tv, lying on the couch till the tv watches me everyday. note that EVERYDAY. gila tak senonoh anank dara ni kan. hahah. peduli aih. dah memang aku pemalas. eiiiiiiiii. masyaALLAH nadia oiiiiii!
bilik jangan cakap lah. macam pig sty. oppsiee. humiliating myself.

well, tomorrow is the Aidiladha. my emak told me to clean up the house corner but my heart refused to do it and the kudrat too. biasalah pemalas kan. just wait her to get home and yell at me for not following her orders. ORDERS sei. haha.

okay. will continue watching the tv. :D

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pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee. i miss you.

hey people.
tomorrow paper, PSS. like History paper back in 2008.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

abang, i miss you. i need you. can i have just a minute chat with you honey. i just need to hear your voice. i want you to know that i'll be facing PSS tomorrow. i want you to say TAKE CARE SAYANG and GOOD LUCK BABY. it's so hard this days without you. even though you've come back but still i freakingly missing you.
even harder because you don't own a phone right now. i called your brother, your sister. none of them is picking up their phone OR reply my text.

Ya ALLAH, please, please and please let me hear his voice. a minute would be more than enough for me. :'(
abang, i love you. i love you. i love you like till the end and i won't go for any guy other than you darling. i missssssssssssss you abang. i want you right now!!!! *sobbing.

rajin kan post post ni. ^^

moorrrrningggg people :)

done with my first paper yesterday. full stop.

next is Pengantar Sains Sosial. haven't finish revising it. err. bila ya kau nak sedar diri?

jawapan: . . . buffering . . .

woke up early this morning. updating my tumblr. just simple. not like others, vavavooooomm.

do take a look* to whom yang baca ni lah. http://donadia.tumblr.com/

kita rindu suami kita. idk for how many times i've been saying that to my friends. haha. ieja and i are planning to meet our suami next week. hopefully jadi. it's about a year like we haven't seen each other face. aww. i am sooo missing you abang. dah lah forbidden love. haishh. apa apa pun I WON'T STOP LOVING YOU, ABANG

a step to dean's list starts tomorrow

to much dreams to pursue these days kan

FINALLY lah! i've sent all my assignments. i am soo soo relieved! phiuh. ^^

but tomorrow is the big day. my final exam started tomorrow. haven't finish covering all the lecture notes. heh! how am i gonna grab the deans lists??? come on baby!!

26th October 2010 : Critical Appreciation

29th October 2010 : Pengantar Sains Sosial

31st October 2010 : Tamadun Islam dan Tamadun Asia

1st November 2010:Bahasa Inggeris untuk Sains Sosial

9th November 2010:Pengantar Bahasa dan Linguistik

after 2-3pm of 9th november, i'll be heading to johor bahru. yeayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!

haih. so excited too, meeting my so-called-husband. hiihii. rindu lah! biarlah :P

well, wish me luck and please do pray for me for NUR NADIA BINTI ZAINAL ALAM SHAH will be included in the dean's lists award. insyaALLAH amiiiiinn. :)

semalam headbanging, hari ni nak headhanging.

wah. dah bertambah follower. haha.
hello. ladies and gentlemen, presenting tomorrow, thursday. nadia will face the busiest day she has ever had. take that you pemalas!

BUT.
i went to paramore live yesterday, 19th october.
bestest okay. it was first time going to concert like that. i was in the rockzone with amie and zuraidah. we were singing(eventhough i didn't memorize all the songs), headbanging, screaming, shouting. my 323 ringgit tak membazir. now, i wanna watch paramore MORE! ^^
met amie's friend: fyqa, zu, fadzuan and fizi there.

okay thursday everyone.
still not working on my assignments which is A LOT.
i miss my already-here-boyfriend :(
thanks ENCIK BURUNG HANTU for coming back after your busy day. :))))))))))

my lucky lucky monday

hi lucky readers too . . . . .

i'm so so soo happy right now. i feel like i wanna shout out loud right now why i'm so happy and full of joy. i can't stop smiling from day to night. :) :) :)

thanks to ENCIK BURUNG HANTU for making my day. sorry to call you this. haha.

after 272 days of being apart. at last i could hear his voice. the voice that used to tickel my heart in the night. the voice that always express the I LOVE YOU words. the voice that always give me pep talk. eventhough sometimes you really irritates me, but i don't know why i still love you. plus, a stronger affection of your love abang.

moments of waiting are worth waits though. haha. betul ke ayat tu? :P

i love you till the end of my life abang.

in a GOOOOOOD mood :))))

hello anyone, whoever you are.

great huh. awesome. feeling good after cleaning my crib. cewaah crib.

i can smell the clean air again. not like my other crib-mate. being ignorant of her surrounding.

hah! let her be like that because i just don't care AT ALL.

hey! i should have been carrying my books right now. Ya Allah! Ling Lang sei! the thickest book this semester which i have to spend more time and effort on seducing IT. plus, 4 presentations more to go, F-O-U-R okay in a week. can you imagine that. whoa.

will head a very hectic week. pfft.

but nadia baby, please, cheer up.

:D :D :D

that's HIS girl. aww. :)