sighing

hello.

feeling the down emotion, sad, unlucky enough anddd other bad feelings. haha. it's funny to write my sad emotion feelings here. but that's the reality. the real thing of what i'm feeling inside. i don't think anyone would care about this. so, i have to face this by my own.

in order to make myself better, i have to, haveee to be strong, a superwoman. nadia, don't hope too much that is impossible and don't ever put high hopes to the people you hoped for that that blaaa blaaaa. okay tak?

yess yesss. i am now leading a quite pathetic life. i don't have smart phone, dslr and so many more that all the now-girls wanted to have and keep them for life in their pocket.

does having all these on-the-go-tech-kit shows who yourself really are? maybe. one word, RICH. does being rich means that you're having a good good life? probably. yeahhh. at least you guys have the money and richness to make yourself forget all your worries kannn?

sadly, i don't have all theseeeeee. do i really care? sometimes. sad and pathetic much? hmm. :)

but. okay there's a but. but maybe. maybe pula? haha. okay but maybe, i could learn more and motive myself to try harder and strive for excellent for all my next 5 semesters of studying. so that i could change my fate and my make my mak very proud of her daughter. and also my children wouldn't experience the same as i am experiencing this now.

what i'm experiencing now, children. children? i would like my coming-children to read my blog in the future seiii. huhu ^^

back to the my experience :D,

i feel like i am not lucky enough to be in this world. why? look how my dad treated me. he took my sister and the kids away to a wonderful vacation, shopping and to wrap everything up, it was like a whole week of holiday which i wasn't invited, not even call like "kak no nak ikut tak ayah pergi jalan?" NOOOO okay!!!! . how did i know this? i peeked at my sister's fb. very sad ;'( and soo not fair. okay fineeeeee! so children of my future, mummy will treat all of you equally and mummy will try not to make all you sad and cry.

will continue writing the heartbroken phase tomorrow. can't handle the tears right now ;'(

thoughts for today

i am treated unequally.

thank you.

doodling :D

hello. hey hey. today, i saw a girl wore this shirt. i was like, what are you wearing girl???. i guess she don't know what thugs meant. sorry but i think she's an idiota. oppsie. with her so-called-blonde-hair. euuww. get a life woman! are you calling yourself bad? criminal? err.

p/s please check the words on the shirt before you purchase it okay. happy shopping. (shopping?) haha.

this is so not fair! grrrr

hello people with bodies. (:

i have missed posting the journey of mine making the pancake. haihhh. sadly, tak jadi. sila gelak. ;(

i don't think my dad is being fair to his two daughters. i hate this. really hate this. yesterday my sister and the kids went to watch Rapunzel without inviting me. later that night, she packed her clothes in a big bag without telling where she'll be heading and went off the house without telling mak and even to kiss mak's hand. she was rude and always be. i don't care if she'll be reading this one day because i do have the times to have the "hating" feeling. she knew that i couldn't join the holiday because i'll be facing the jpj test this monday. well at least!!! tell me or say " jomlah". you know, like please (do) invite me even though i won't be joining you. my dad too. he always treat me and my sister unequally. she will always has more than me. i am so frustrated and dissapointed with this. thank you so much. :'( :'( :'(

fine! it's okay. i guess i'll be pushing myself and counting on my own self to have what i want andddd to satisfy the ME. go nadia!! don't have hope to other people which you can't counted on. okay tak ayat? sjkznekjiertepote*^U*&)NHJGFF <---- considered as cursing. (smirk)

not lucky enough huh? tak apa tak apa. one day you'll see the real ME, i mean the new successful ME.