Hello after a longggggggg vacation

Assalamualaikum everybody

Urghhh as if anybody would read my blog. Anyhoooooooo, I'm back. IDK whether I'm back with a new look or back for farewell to this dusty site. Fuhh fuhhhhhh habuk gooooooooo!

I've been thinking about making a blog just for my kids on my life and "How I Met Your Baba". Cool kan mummy ni? HIHI. I know I know. Well, most of my friends said I will be the coolest mummy to my juniors. Don't you guys should be less worried about you mummy being cool gila. Yeahhhh I like that statement. Enough said.

You must be thinking kan why I'm back? Why should I be coming back, writing the dusty old unattractive blog andddd absolutely no die hard fans. This is my blog I can come whenever I want to.

The last entry was written during the first semester. Now I'm back after 2 semesters. Haha. At least I come back to wipe away those dirty bushes bebel bebel.
I think I should decorate bebel bebel first then I would be glad to write again, I wish.

D'accord. Au revoir. Merci :)
p/s maybe I'll be writing in french, one day.

sighing

hello.

feeling the down emotion, sad, unlucky enough anddd other bad feelings. haha. it's funny to write my sad emotion feelings here. but that's the reality. the real thing of what i'm feeling inside. i don't think anyone would care about this. so, i have to face this by my own.

in order to make myself better, i have to, haveee to be strong, a superwoman. nadia, don't hope too much that is impossible and don't ever put high hopes to the people you hoped for that that blaaa blaaaa. okay tak?

yess yesss. i am now leading a quite pathetic life. i don't have smart phone, dslr and so many more that all the now-girls wanted to have and keep them for life in their pocket.

does having all these on-the-go-tech-kit shows who yourself really are? maybe. one word, RICH. does being rich means that you're having a good good life? probably. yeahhh. at least you guys have the money and richness to make yourself forget all your worries kannn?

sadly, i don't have all theseeeeee. do i really care? sometimes. sad and pathetic much? hmm. :)

but. okay there's a but. but maybe. maybe pula? haha. okay but maybe, i could learn more and motive myself to try harder and strive for excellent for all my next 5 semesters of studying. so that i could change my fate and my make my mak very proud of her daughter. and also my children wouldn't experience the same as i am experiencing this now.

what i'm experiencing now, children. children? i would like my coming-children to read my blog in the future seiii. huhu ^^

back to the my experience :D,

i feel like i am not lucky enough to be in this world. why? look how my dad treated me. he took my sister and the kids away to a wonderful vacation, shopping and to wrap everything up, it was like a whole week of holiday which i wasn't invited, not even call like "kak no nak ikut tak ayah pergi jalan?" NOOOO okay!!!! . how did i know this? i peeked at my sister's fb. very sad ;'( and soo not fair. okay fineeeeee! so children of my future, mummy will treat all of you equally and mummy will try not to make all you sad and cry.

will continue writing the heartbroken phase tomorrow. can't handle the tears right now ;'(

thoughts for today

i am treated unequally.

thank you.

doodling :D

hello. hey hey. today, i saw a girl wore this shirt. i was like, what are you wearing girl???. i guess she don't know what thugs meant. sorry but i think she's an idiota. oppsie. with her so-called-blonde-hair. euuww. get a life woman! are you calling yourself bad? criminal? err.

p/s please check the words on the shirt before you purchase it okay. happy shopping. (shopping?) haha.

this is so not fair! grrrr

hello people with bodies. (:

i have missed posting the journey of mine making the pancake. haihhh. sadly, tak jadi. sila gelak. ;(

i don't think my dad is being fair to his two daughters. i hate this. really hate this. yesterday my sister and the kids went to watch Rapunzel without inviting me. later that night, she packed her clothes in a big bag without telling where she'll be heading and went off the house without telling mak and even to kiss mak's hand. she was rude and always be. i don't care if she'll be reading this one day because i do have the times to have the "hating" feeling. she knew that i couldn't join the holiday because i'll be facing the jpj test this monday. well at least!!! tell me or say " jomlah". you know, like please (do) invite me even though i won't be joining you. my dad too. he always treat me and my sister unequally. she will always has more than me. i am so frustrated and dissapointed with this. thank you so much. :'( :'( :'(

fine! it's okay. i guess i'll be pushing myself and counting on my own self to have what i want andddd to satisfy the ME. go nadia!! don't have hope to other people which you can't counted on. okay tak ayat? sjkznekjiertepote*^U*&)NHJGFF <---- considered as cursing. (smirk)

not lucky enough huh? tak apa tak apa. one day you'll see the real ME, i mean the new successful ME.

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do we really need all this? like really?!!

hello anybody. how have you all been doing? great huh? yeah it's weekend lah. ^_^

sooo. maybe the title should be DO I REALLY NEED THIS. haha.

when to think this back kan. do i really need this branded clothes, shoes and bags and etc etc?? plus, i am not from a rich family, i don't have that much of savings and i don't have the scholar except for ehsan ayah tercinta. anddd, i am studying right now. i should focus most on studies and my coming career. i have to think how am i going to make my mak happier and give anything she wants like i was now and a little monster. i want to pay everything back to her. she has done A LOTTT to me. i love you mak.

to add more. when to think it back againnnn, what's the purpose of me living in this world? to make more money? to make a lot of friends? to make my wardrobe fuuuull with branded things or whatsoever? maybe i can afford to buy all the things i wanted in the future. in order to afford all this thins i wanted, i have to get an awesome job. and in order to have an awesome job, i have to struggle on my studies. this time i'm studying what i like which i prefer the most rather than studying biology, physics and chemistry. do you know that when you are studying the thing that you like, i mean that goes along with your music, you'll have a higher probability to nail it mann.

sooo nadia, go for it girl!! study first. if you really really really need this ( i know myself well though ), rethink about that again. if the things gain more that 3 reallys. :D

andd solat pray hope tawakal. insyaALLAH, everything that i wanted will be granted. amiiiin.

p/s : does getting everything that you want would make you happier? think about it (: